Dilemma

Try to be different, but there's no hope
Try to be the same, but it's complicated
Try to be him, but I couldn't do anything
Try to be her, but I know I already lost
Try to be a better person, but somehow it makes me feel awkward
Try to be a bad person, but I know I won't be forgiven
Try to be the best, but there's never enough
Try to be the worst, but I know I just embarrassed myself
Try to be happy, but I'm hurting myself
Try to be sad, but It's kinda weird
Try to be them, but they always talking nonsense
Try to be popular, but they talking behind my back
Try to be a silencer, but they keep asking
Try to be smart, but It makes me tired
Try to be stupid, but It's a strange thing to do

So what should I do to be myself?