I don't know about my feeling right now. It's like going up and down at the same time. Tomorrow I'll turn eighteen, but i don't feel happy at all. That's something in my mind. It's just so hard to express it even with word. I feel sad and I don't know why. It's maybe because i don't know what should i do. I even don't know what I want or become. Many things goin' on inside. And to be honest, i feel exhausted and tired right now. Year passed by, and now I'll be eighteen. But still, even at this age i still can't do anything. For me, for my family, for my friends. I feel ashamed with others and it hurts so bad that i can't deny it.
I always think that my dream can't come true. Because many people said I can't be like one. I try my best to be like other and pursue the different path. But, it hurts. Even though, I already become one. I'm not satisfied because I know I hate what I became. Many pressure going on and I'm stuck in a circle. I can't go anywhere. No one help. Like a bird in a cage. Indeed.
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